I went out last night to Blackhawk with a couple of friends.  We had fun even though I lost a lot of money!  We left my house a little bit past 4:00 PM and didn’t get home until after 4:00 AM.  My husband was the babysitter last night.  He allows me to go out and have fun sometimes and I am thankful for that.  Not a lot of husbands would allow their wives to go out, especially if they have new babies.  I guess I am very lucky to have an understanding and supportive husband.

          It might be a while before I go out to a casino again.  It was my first time being away from my baby Von for that long.  I thought everything was gonna be okay but I just kept thinking about him and I missed him sooo much.  I was in a hurry to go home and my first thought was that I was gonna hug him and give him a lot of kisses!!!

          I called my husband last night and he told me that Von couldn’t sleep and he sometimes looked sad.  Maybe he missed his mom too as much as his mom missed him.

          Anyways, that would be the first and last time to be away from my baby for such a long period of time!  Never again, because it made me so crazy!  I now know how a mother really feels when she is away from her baby for so long.